This is my second son, Morgan. He was lifted out of my numbed body through a hole in my abdomen in the early hours of a Friday, three weeks ago. I heard a gurgled cry, and then the surgeon held him up for me to see – a slippery, crying doll-like baby covered in white vernix.
I didn’t labour for days to have him, because I had a c-section. This is a choice I feel really good about. He’s my last baby, and I’m glad I have something other than the memories of fear and trauma from the birth of my first son. I did have a bit of labour, because Morgan decided to arrive early, thus the middle of the night intervention rather than my lovely planned hospital appointment for birth.
His face wasn’t bruised from the squeeze of a vaginal birth, his features weren’t distorted by swelling. I didn’t lose loads of blood or scream with pain and fear as he was born. Although I lay on my back on an operating table, numb from the breasts down with a sheet blocking his view, his birth was beautiful to me. I chose it, I felt in control, and although I trembled with shock a little as I was wheeled into Recovery, I felt positive after the birth.
I held him to my breast and his mouth latched onto my nipple and I loved him immediately, just as I loved my first child immediately.
Now we are four. Four in the home and four in the heart. I have a partner whom I love passionately and two beautiful children. There won’t be any more babies for me, so I’m enjoying this time. Our family is complete. I’m whole.
🙂 Lovely post. Welcome, Morgan! I’m so pleased for you both that your birth experience this time was positive and that you were able to make the best decision for you and your family x
What a beautiful photo of the two of you, very serene. Welcome, Morgan! What a great mum you have.
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Beautiful XOXO
Just so gorgeous Missy. Your family is incredibly lucky,to have you as mother hen, i am glad your experience this time around was slightly better. X
Welcome to the world Morgan!
Lovely to read a positive birth experience, enjoy!